A Mother is a Woman too

Last week, I felt the need to break off. Break off from the responsibility of running the home, being a mother, being a working person. I just wanted to be a woman.

Small things started irritating me. When I wake up, my household help always asks me what she should make for dinner. Everyday I tell her. But last week, I didn't want to take a decision. I felt like saying, "Why should I tell you? I don't care!" But I couldn't. It wasn't her fault that I was crabby. I shirked the responsibility by passing it on for a day to my husband and daughter. But it came back the next day to irritate me.

Then I began getting irritated at home work, questions that my daughter would normally ask, like could she go to her friend's house, or what should she take for a school snack. I again wanted to say, "Decide and move on, don't bother me!" but I didn't. I gently nudged her to take a decision instead.

I even got irritated when she complained of stomach ache after a binge of eating junk. It was like it was my fault even after I had told her a million times that she shouldn't binge on junk food. I snapped at her. And felt lousy about it.

That's when I took the decision to take a break from being a mommy. I just packed my bags, and went out of town. Only for day (5 pm to 5 pm the next day). Just to feel like a woman without any commitments.

Even though I just joined my husband, we got together and hung out like we used to, when we were courting each other. Just for that day. It was romantic, there were no household discussions or decisions to be made, there was no child. Just a man & woman, re-exploring and re-discovering one another.

I just came back. Fresh and charged about being a mom and running a house. Completely at ease, not irritations, no frustrations.

It worked for me. Try it someday. It will make you feel like a woman again...